Breaking the Silence

I have thought long and hard about sharing this on the blog and finally decided to break the silence. It's been a long past couple of weeks at our house. It started for me of all places on the trampoline. I was watching Tylee and my two jump with my mother. My mom had just come home from the Dr. with my dad. They took him because he was certain that he had shingles and needed to get something to treat the pain around his abdomen. I was kind of having a ruff day with feeling a little overwhelmed with kids as mother's sometimes can feel. My mom started talking about the Dr's appointment and had said that the Dr. had found large masses in his liver and pancreas. At this point it didn't feel like anything was the matter. I like many people my age think that they will out live their father. Well quite a few Dr appointment's later our family was informed that he has between 3-9 months to live.

Amazing how perspective can change in an instant. This world constantly reminds me that it's not about me but about serving others. I don't know why I haven't figured that out sooner because I have had two of the greatest examples to learn from. The wave of people coming over and sharing their thanks and I love yous is overwhelming. There are men constantly outside working on projects that need to be taken care of before he passes so my mom doesn't have to worry. To all of those men Thank You. And to all of the wives that bring over dinners Thank you. I use to take naps for fun but now I find that answering the phone and the door leaves me exhausted.
Some things I have learned about my dad in these past few days is how strong he is. He is in constant pain and he puts on a smile and shows us how much he loves us. My dad cares about the "one" regardless of the group that he often is teaching. A women came to the door and had brought my dad a quilt and some tortilla's. She had said that she felt like she had found a new son in my father only after meeting him once. I am amazed at that. But it's not taking much these days.
So today he goes in for chemotherapy and we'll see what that does for him. The Dr's are saying perhaps it will buy him a few days or even months. I am glad I am here with him. I think my daughter is good medicine for pampa.