Breaking the Silence

I have thought long and hard about sharing this on the blog and finally decided to break the silence. It's been a long past couple of weeks at our house. It started for me of all places on the trampoline. I was watching Tylee and my two jump with my mother. My mom had just come home from the Dr. with my dad. They took him because he was certain that he had shingles and needed to get something to treat the pain around his abdomen. I was kind of having a ruff day with feeling a little overwhelmed with kids as mother's sometimes can feel. My mom started talking about the Dr's appointment and had said that the Dr. had found large masses in his liver and pancreas. At this point it didn't feel like anything was the matter. I like many people my age think that they will out live their father. Well quite a few Dr appointment's later our family was informed that he has between 3-9 months to live.

Amazing how perspective can change in an instant. This world constantly reminds me that it's not about me but about serving others. I don't know why I haven't figured that out sooner because I have had two of the greatest examples to learn from. The wave of people coming over and sharing their thanks and I love yous is overwhelming. There are men constantly outside working on projects that need to be taken care of before he passes so my mom doesn't have to worry. To all of those men Thank You. And to all of the wives that bring over dinners Thank you. I use to take naps for fun but now I find that answering the phone and the door leaves me exhausted.
Some things I have learned about my dad in these past few days is how strong he is. He is in constant pain and he puts on a smile and shows us how much he loves us. My dad cares about the "one" regardless of the group that he often is teaching. A women came to the door and had brought my dad a quilt and some tortilla's. She had said that she felt like she had found a new son in my father only after meeting him once. I am amazed at that. But it's not taking much these days.
So today he goes in for chemotherapy and we'll see what that does for him. The Dr's are saying perhaps it will buy him a few days or even months. I am glad I am here with him. I think my daughter is good medicine for pampa.

Brigg's 3rd Birthday

My little baby is growing up. It's wierd to think that I have a three year old. I went to bunco last night and a girl there had told me she had been married for 5 years. I thought wow that's a long time until I realized that I will be married for four in July. It's amazing how quickly time passes. So here are a lot of photo's of briggs happenings of the day.

We started the day off right with some blueberry pancakes and fruit. (fruit is a must because Nessy is anti bread and meat. If she grows up to be a vegetarian I think she's going to get a spakin')

We let the kids play all morning and then went to sweet tomatoes for lunch and played at the park next store.








This bird was insane. Brad and I don't know what kindof bird it is but it would go under the water for what seemed like minutes and then pop up on the other side of the pond. I have never seen anything like it, thus the pic.






Brad and I had fully intended on throwing brigg a birthday party with his buddies but I think it just became too overwhelming for me. There never seemed to be a good weekend so after going to the park and to target (he picked out new shoes) we came home and threw together a party for the little guy.


Brigg is really into buzz lightyear right now and Vanessa is really into cake so this is what I came up with. I can't take total credit for the design because I stole it off of "be different act normal". When Brigg saw it he said "OH MY GOSH!!! MOMMY A ROCKET!!" I hate him saying oh my gosh but it was still really cute how much he loved the cake.

New York

So Brad went to New York with his Master's program and had a great time. He says it looks bigger in the movies, he makes me laugh. Thought I'd post a few pics of the trip.

I didn't want to say it but.....

I think when choosing a name for your child you try and think about all of the ways that other kids can make fun of it. I know we really may have scarred Brigham for life but we'll chalk that up there to a boy named Sue. At any rate I thought we had a real winner with Vanessa. It's just such a pretty name in my opinion. Well since she has been born she has been called Vanna, Nessa, Nessy, Nanny, Sissy, Sissy LaLa, Sister, and I think Nessy-Pessy is one Brad has proclaimed upon her. Well I am okay with all of those but the one I was dreading was Messy Nessy but if the boot fits....

The Red Polka Dot Give away

So my site TheRedPolkaDot has a new look and I am celebrating by doing a give away. If you are interested in winning this tutu and checking out the new look go to TheRedPolkaDot

BIG DAY TOMORROW!!!!!

So my sweet husband is finally coming home and it's my Birthday. It's the best gift ever!!! He has been so sweet this entire week by remembering the birthday monster. Every morning I wake up to find a clue on the table as to where my present is hidden that day. It has been so nice and has helped pass the time. I have a wonderful guy!

SO my little girl has been hanging out with a really bad influence lately. As you can see she is wearing old man glasses and a hunting shirt. Guess who the bad influence is??? You guessed it it's grandpa Joe. The silly glasses crack me up and the camo shirt I could live with out but the girl spits like grandpa. I am not even kidding you. I hope it's a phase and as soon as we move she will move on too, until then I am raising the librarian from the mountain. Thanks DAD!

Passing time with Brigg and miss T

No great story here I just am trying to pass some time as my husband is still away in NY and thought I would try and perfect my photo editing abilities. Aren't they adorable though. These two fight so much but they really do love each other.

Beginning of my Birthday Week

Ok so I was all sad tonight, my man left for New York for just about my entire Birthday week. What made it worse is he was really sad to go too. Normally he is itching to go and I have to tell him to go and sit in the car until I am ready, it really is bad. But I would almost rather that than seeing him beeing so sad. So he took me to dinner and then I dropped him off just a few hours ago and I cried all the way home. I came in and in my efforts to get my mind off of him went on the net. I saw that my web site THeRedPolkadot had been updated. Well normally I like to keep my two blogs separate but I had to show what ginger just posted.



Aren't they rockin! She has some other cool stuff if you want to check it out click here. I love it because there aren't too many things for boys. So I am still upset about Brad but I guess life goes on.
Oh and if anyone has any ideas as to what I should do on my birthday I would love the suggestions. I have the day with my mom. She said I get to plan it so I can do what I want and not what she thinks I want. Problem is I want to be with Brad so anything would help. Thanks!